7th November 2010

Sis. Last night exactly one year ago was your accident.

I still remember that night. We had dinner together at KFC with Siak and Elaine. Have not had dinner together for a long time before that. At that time, I could not have known that it was our last dinner together.

I fetched you back home. After that while I was chatting with Siak and Elaine in their room I received a phone call from pa. He said someone told him you're in an accident. I rushed to your place and shouted for you but there was no reply. Then I received a call from your phone, but it was someone else. She told me where you were and I rushed there. I started to get scared.

As I was rushing out of Westlake guardhouse I saw Pui Yee driving, heading the same direction. I sped. Just as I turn round the corner to the main road I saw many cars parked at the side and a throng of people surrounding what I never thought were you and Pei Feng. I ran towards you.

I saw you lying on the floor. Blood everywhere. You were shaken. You told me you were very very scared. Crying. I was lost for words. I tried to comfort you. Telling you everything is going to be alright. I too was shaken. I did not know what to do.

After they lifted you into the ambulance, I tried to follow it to the Kampar hospital but I was halted by the slow-moving cars. I honked, I revved but they did not budge. I was furious, and scared, very very scared at the same time. I prayed, and prayed that you're going to be alright.

Siak, Elaine and Thien reached the hospital not long after I did. As you were lying on the hospital bed you told me not to tell pa and ma. You did not want them to worry. But your condition was critical. Badly injured. I talked to the medics and one of them told me you need to undergo operations which can only be done in Ipoh. They gave me a few choices and I chose KPJ Ipoh Specialist.

As we were waiting for the ambulance to arrive, your friends were out there. Worried about you. I prayed. I talked to jie on the phone. Pa and ma were already leaving Kuantan.

You were resting when we were on our way to Ipoh. Siak, Elaine and Thien was following behind. In the hospital, we waited. After a few hours only did I manage to consult the surgeons about your condition. They told me your legs were fractured and there's a blood clot in your brain. I broke down. They told me an operation was needed urgently, but they did not have enough suitable blood in the hospital blood bank. However, they managed to get a few more from the other hospitals but they needed to replenish it as soon as possible. So I called up my friends. They rushed to the hospital as soon as they could. They were very helpful. Bless them.

When pa and ma arrived, they looked very very tired and anxious. They're in agony. After the operation, you were still unconscious, under anaesthetic. I came back to Kampar to rest after pa told me to. It was already around 9am that time. When I woke up, I went to the scene of the accident to take a few photos. You were unconscious for quite some time and pa told me to stay put in Kampar. I did not want him to worry about me, so I did.

You woke up and for the next few days, you seemed fine. Almost all our relatives were there in the hospital that time. You talked to us. You joked with us. I remember you telling ma that the milo in the hospital doesn't taste good, and you wanted to go back home. You kept reminding us to drive safely, you said that even if we are careful, others might not. You kept telling me that. I will always remember.

Everything was fine. Until your second operation. I was in Kampar that time. The doctor said you needed another operation for your leg. We trusted the doctor.

Kor called me the next day after your second operation, he told me that you had a seizure the night before and you were on life support.

It has already been a week after you were hospitalised, the doctor told pa that your brain wasn't responding anymore and they had to stop the life support. We were by your side. We were praying when they switched off your life support.

It was 7th November.